Sunday, November 25, 2012

Maybe this is wrong

Soooo I probably shouldn't admit this, and it will probably cause some judgements to be cast on me, but I don't mind. Judge me if you will. Here's the thing.....

I'm sick of being single.

I'm tired of watching everyone fall in love, get engaged, get married, have babies.
Lather, rinse, repeat.

I know.
I'm young.
My time will come.

I'm tired of it.
So there.

Friday, November 23, 2012


Happy Holiday Season!!
I love this time of year.  Food, family, fun, friends and a lot of opportunities to be a good person.
Opportunities to serve our brothers and sisters here on earth.
Today, after braving the shopping centers, I was grumpy and hating on the other human beings that live on this planet. I was appalled by the actions of some people and the greediness that I saw.  I'm all for a good deal, but sometimes things don't matter.
But, people always matter. 

Then, while at Cafe Rio, a man brought me a shoe key ring.
I smiled and said thank you.
He just continued walking around handing everyone at the tables a key ring similar to the one he gave me.  I read the paper that was attached.
I looked around to see how others were reacting to this strange gift.

One man just pushed it the edge of his table.  Another lady scoffed at the idea of selling these "awful" things.

But, one of my fellow diners, pulled $40 out of his wallet and set it on top of the key chain.
I looked in my wallet and pulled out my donation.

The man who had given out the key chains came back around to collect them or the money.  I watched as nearly everyone handed back the key chain.
All these people who had undoubtedly just spend hundreds of dollars on other things, handed back the key chain instead of $3.

As I handed the man my small donation, he signed thank you and went to the man who handed him the $40.

The man searched through his pockets to find some change to give him.  The man who made the donation just smiled and patted his hands while mouthing, "keep it".  The man signed thank you and smiled a very large smile.

This experience got me thinking.  I usually turn down opportunities to give.
I say no pretty much every time a cashier asks me to donate money to charity.

My goal this holiday season is to focus on giving.
Focus on people, and what I can give to them.

Sunday, November 04, 2012

I will Rise

A few weeks ago I attended a choir concert here at USU.  I loved every minute of it.  But, they sang a song that has stuck with me and been on my mind literally everyday since I heard it. 
They sang to honor a young  man who clearly had touched many lives. 
And now his memory has touched mine too.

As I listened to this beautiful song, I felt My God.
I felt His spirit stronger than I ever have before.

Jesus has overcome
I used to think people were crazy for letting themselves hit rock bottom before they sought help
whether from the Savior or from loved ones.
but, I did that.
I hit rock bottom in the Provo Mall food court with my mom
back in April
I couldn't do it anymore
I finally came to her for help
I was lost, confused, hurt, and abandoned.
I didn't know how to crawl back out of the hole I had got myself in.
I needed her.
She told me 
"You will rise above this
You will get beyond this
You have to turn to God.
Becuase he's felt this pain.
and he has overcome it
He's there for you.
Reach up
He'll help."
And He did
and He still is helping me
every day
I know that God lives
I know that my Savior Jesus Christ
suffered for my sins
I know that He died for me
and I know that He will come again
and when he does,
I will rise
when He calls my name
No more sorrow
no more pain.
And so will you.