Maybe this is wrong

Soooo I probably shouldn't admit this, and it will probably cause some judgements to be cast on me, but I don't mind. Judge me if you will. Here's the thing.....

I'm sick of being single.

I'm tired of watching everyone fall in love, get engaged, get married, have babies.
Lather, rinse, repeat.

I know.
I'm young.
My time will come.
Blah.
Blah.
Blah.

I'm tired of it.
So there.

Unselfish

Happy Holiday Season!!
I love this time of year.  Food, family, fun, friends and a lot of opportunities to be a good person.
Opportunities to serve our brothers and sisters here on earth.
Today, after braving the shopping centers, I was grumpy and hating on the other human beings that live on this planet. I was appalled by the actions of some people and the greediness that I saw.  I'm all for a good deal, but sometimes things don't matter.
But, people always matter. 

Then, while at Cafe Rio, a man brought me a shoe key ring.
I smiled and said thank you.
He just continued walking around handing everyone at the tables a key ring similar to the one he gave me.  I read the paper that was attached.

I looked around to see how others were reacting to this strange gift.

One man just pushed it the edge of his table.  Another lady scoffed at the idea of selling these "awful" things.

But, one of my fellow diners, pulled $40 out of his wallet and set it on top of the key chain.
I looked in my wallet and pulled out my donation.

The man who had given out the key chains came back around to collect them or the money.  I watched as nearly everyone handed back the key chain.
All these people who had undoubtedly just spend hundreds of dollars on other things, handed back the key chain instead of $3.

As I handed the man my small donation, he signed thank you and went to the man who handed him the $40.

The man searched through his pockets to find some change to give him.  The man who made the donation just smiled and patted his hands while mouthing, "keep it".  The man signed thank you and smiled a very large smile.

This experience got me thinking.  I usually turn down opportunities to give.
I say no pretty much every time a cashier asks me to donate money to charity.

My goal this holiday season is to focus on giving.
Focus on people, and what I can give to them.

I will Rise

A few weeks ago I attended a choir concert here at USU.  I loved every minute of it.  But, they sang a song that has stuck with me and been on my mind literally everyday since I heard it. 
They sang to honor a young  man who clearly had touched many lives. 
And now his memory has touched mine too.

As I listened to this beautiful song, I felt My God.
I felt His spirit stronger than I ever have before.

 

Jesus has overcome

 

I used to think people were crazy for letting themselves hit rock bottom before they sought help

whether from the Savior or from loved ones.

but, I did that.

 

 

I hit rock bottom in the Provo Mall food court with my mom

back in April

I couldn't do it anymore

I finally came to her for help

I was lost, confused, hurt, and abandoned.

I didn't know how to crawl back out of the hole I had got myself in.

I needed her.

 

She told me 

"You will rise above this

You will get beyond this

but,

You have to turn to God.

Becuase he's felt this pain.

and he has overcome it

He's there for you.

Reach up

He'll help."

 

And He did

and He still is helping me

every day

 

I know that God lives

I know that my Savior Jesus Christ

suffered for my sins

I know that He died for me

and I know that He will come again

 

and when he does,

 

I will rise

when He calls my name

No more sorrow

no more pain.

 

And so will you.

 

:) 





 

  



If wishes were fishes

Alright peeps. Here's the low down.
Sometimes I daydream.
Sometimes ilet my imagination go craycray.
Usually, this happens when I get too caught up in the monotony that is my life.

I start dreaming
Dreaming of my hot husband
Dreaming of my cute lil bebes
Dreaming of my nicely decorated house
my skinny toned butt
my successful job
My fashionable clothes
My blah blah blah blah blah BLAH!!!!!!!!

Then reality slaps me in the face

I'm single
My butt jiggles when I walk
I get paid less than someone who flips burgers

All of those things,
I don't have

Some of those things I may never have

Some of those things I may get someday

But the reality is,
Reality has to be enough
Reality is what I'm stuck with

I, Amy Beckert, was given this reality for a reason.
And I don't think it was to wish it was some other reality

I was given this reality to
ENJOY
It

To
EMBRACE
It

And to
ENHANCE
It

There it is,
my new life motto

Enjoy, Embrace, Enhance

Catch up and Rubber

Goodness. It's been awhile.

Sometimes I get all weird about how annoying blogging is because my life isn't as exciting as the other people's life and my pictures aren't as cool and blah blah blah blah blah.

But now I'm over it

and you are probably going to be bombarded with the pointless mumbo jumbo this blog specializes in :) 

So now I need to play catch up.

so here goes.

**SCHOOL**

This semester was supposed to be my last one.  But it's not going to be.  BUTTTT, that's ok. 

I'm doing an internship teaching 3rd grade for the year, so the pointless class I have to take next semester should fit in just fine.  

I'm enjoying teaching for the most part. ha 

most of the time, I love it

Some days I hate it

Such is life.

**PARACHUTE**

our state fair is the best state fair in the state

because

they had a FREE parachute concert

 it was joyful

**MY BEST FRIEND'S WEDDING**

so Brittnay has a husband

and I think he's pretty great

which is a good thing

they got married in September

it was beautiful

and I am beyond happy for them

**PLAIN OL' BORIN' LIFE**

thank heavens for instagram, so I have photos from my everyday life

I really love it. 

if you are extremely interested in these lovely photos, 

follow me

@amyjomama

FINALLY!

if you've read for awhile, you are well aware that I have search far and wide for a 

mustard cardigan

and I got one

and I wore it

and I love it

member how I won a wii at work?

it has been put to good use to help me polish up my mario skills

which need a lot of polishing

self-help books suck

especially when you have to read one for work

buttttt,

eggs, toast, and chocoalte almond milk 

make reading a little better

the fall colors in the canyon are BEAUtiful. 

and I'm real good at taking pictures while I drive.

who needs to pull over

I could marry WinCo

Utah State is good at football??

who knew!

Ahhhh

taco tuesday

mint limeaide

modern family

see, my life rocks

my super classy alma mater

payso hig school

guys, this is my favorite musical

so I went to it

and I liked it. 

and I can't wait for the movie

and I'm totally team Eponine

and I'm team Gale in hunger games

perhaps I'm just team

friendship can be loveship

mmmm

oh demo derby

and rednecks

I just love 'em

and that's what you missed

in the last months of my life!

Stay tuned for the next exciting events :) 

Currently

At this very moment....

I am listening to this.....on repeat



I should be doing lesson plans

My headband and my underwear match perfectly

I am going to vacum my floor....for the first time since I moved in...oops

I am feeling pretty grateful for this life I have.

I am working on a blog post to catch you up on the last upteen months of my life that I've been an absentee blogger.....oops

Seriously though.
This is the best thing ever.

don't forget

today was just a normal day.
got out of bed.
showered.
got ready.
went to school.

When I got to school, I started doing my everyday tasks.  They are mundane...
turn on the computer.
bring in the trash cans.
write the date on the board.

The date today was 9-11-12.  The significance of the date rang true in my mind.  I went back to that day in 5th grade.  The day I will always remember.

Then I looked at my lesson plan for the day.  There wasn't any mention of this day.  We were going to do normal things.  We were going to forget to remember.
My 3rd grade students were born in the year 2004 or 2005.  They weren't there that frightful day.  They weren't there to see a country rise from the ashes and join together as one.
Today while we said the pledge of allegiance, I looked at the 26 little faces in my classroom, facing the flag of the United States of America, speaking the words we do every morning.

and to the republic for which it stands
one nation, under God
indivisible
with liberty and justice for
all

those kids will have liberty.
they will know justice.

they are free to stand up in class everyday and utter those profound words.

I'm not sure that they know what the world trade centers were.
I'm not sure they've ever heard the word terrorism.
I'm not sure they know that 11 years ago, hundreds of people lost their lives because their liberty and justice was taken away.

After the pledge, I got caught up in the daily to-dos and didn't ever mention the significance of September 11th to my innocent students.
I forgot to remember.

But I did learn something today.
 for as long as I teach, as long as I'm in a classroom on this day, my students will know--my students will learn--that on this day in the year 2001, freedom was attacked.  They will know that their country joined together to overcome turmoil.  We will remember.

to read more about my feelings, go here 

Also, I'm linking up with other wonderful bloggers to show respect and remembrance for all those who lost their lives or loved ones 11 years ago.

Ran-Dumb

This is one of those posts
ya know the ones
the ones where by thoughts vomit on the computer
and you read them
and you're like
whoa.
Amy's weird.

Yup it's one of those.

So I just discovered this blog...ok not really JUST, but like a while ago and then I spent my whole 8 hour workday reading the posts and dying of laughter.
Then I was too ashamed to push follow because I'm weird about that.  It takes me awhile to commit to following a blog written by someone I don't actually KNOW because it makes me feel like a creeper.

Then low and behold, today we were reunited and once again, I spent most of my 8 hour work day catching up on the posts I've missed since our last encounter.  So then I decided I should just man up and click follow. So now I'm following it so I can laugh everyday instead of for 8 hours.

 Butttt here's my issue.  It's happened before that I come across a blog that I'm lovin, then I overcome my fear and push follow, then they stop posting awesome things and I'm like WTsmell? why am I following this blog? Has that ever happened to you? {maybe perhaps with this blog? :( I hope not!}  Phew. It's an issue.

Also, I'm in love. I don't mean highschool I love you I love you too, I mean I am in love and I want to be. There's nobody else in the world for me, and there never will be, I'm taken.


by a coldstone creation. It's called: "The way I roll" and it has my heart.   Seriously though. think about it....cake batter meets pecans, meets cookie dough, meets cinnamon. BOMB.  It's all I think about.  Mmmmmm Yummmmm.  okay. this needs to stop. I'm going crazy.

Also, can we just talk about Boy Meets World again for a minute.  I know, I know-- I'm annoying.  But here's the thing, this episode is FUN-NY. This is the episode when Cory and Shawn set up a Bed and Breakfast in Mr. Feeny's house.



Then they realized that they have to give the people breakfast.
 
 I seriously love it.

Also, I discovered this website that lets you cut portions of a youtube video. It's legit. It's called TubeChop and I think it's the bees knees. 

Also, I'm moving today.  Yikes.  I'm pretty excited yet scared out of my britches at the same time.

By the way, who gave time permission to go by so stinkin fast!?! seriously how is it already the middle of August???? Crazy.

ok, ok last thing.

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kills me!

Ok actually just joking THIS is for real the last thing.

have a nice trip.

this trippin blogpost is soooo overdue.  I started it on time like 2 days after we returned, but then ya know real life got in the way, and It has yet to be finished.  Sooooo hopefully today I will be posting it. We'll see.

so last month (raise your hand if you think it's trippy that it's the MIDDLE of AUGUST already...whew) anyway. my family and I took a joyful road trip to the big A to the Z area code 480.  It was vonderful.

first stop....rainstrom.

this was a freak rainstorm.  Literally. God dumped the whole pacific ocean from the sky in two minutes and then it was done. 

Sin Citay. 

We stopped to watch the fountains and then went to the gardens in the Bellagio.  If you get a chance, go. It's pretty cool.

We stayed at Sam's Town and had wonderful pina colada's while we watched the light show

The next day, we headed out of Vegas.  We stopped to see the temple because we love to...

And I bought a house...nbd ;)

You're all invited to visit the day after I win the lottery.... 

Onward we went to good ol' Mesa

When we got there we went to Sweet Tomatoes {no pictures because I was busy...stuffing my face with the best food eva} 

Then we went to see the building of the Gilbert Temple.  

Love it.

Next day...POOL TIME

And Baseball time!

Randomly at the game, I found my future husband and child.  It was very convenient. 

http://i.usatoday.net/sports/_photos/2012/06/11/ADP-often-influenced-by-suspect-numbers-NF1LND2G-x-large.jpg

Just doin his thing ...playing 1st base...being sexy

And my/our future child. 

I have yet to talk it over with the hubs because he doesn't even really know we are married yet. 

details. details.

the picture doesn't even do him justice.  he's ADORABLE and a baller. love it.

Friday, we went to the natural bridge in Payson, AZ.  

the gift shop was pretty legit. Ghetto, yet legit.

Now here's the thing.  The first hike we decided to go on was to see a waterfall. I guess I had a distorted image as to what a waterfall actually was.  So let me look it up.....

wa·ter·fall/ˈwôtərˌfôl/

Noun:

A cascade of water falling from a height, formed when a river or stream flows over a precipice or steep incline.

So I was expecting a cascade. ya know....a large gushing wall of water. 

here's what we saw....

 

 see it?? no? ok close one eye and tilt your head to the left....

now do you see it?

drip. drip. drop. little april shower. 

So that was a wee bit of a disappointment.

The natural bridge, as I understand it, is completely naturally made by erosion from wind and water...

(do I sound like a 3rd grade teacher...cuz I'm gonna be one.  just practicing :))  

looking down from the top. looks pretty cool.

So you see those itty bitty people down in there? here let me zoom it in for you....

 

That's where we decided to go. 

Way down there. 

 

So anyway, we headed down the trail to see the bridge from below. 

the trail ended here.

 

 

 

then we thought it would be a brilliant idea to climb all the huge slippery rocks and walk under the bridge. 

brilliant.

and I only got stuck twice. 

pretty good.

So I really can't describe to y'all how intense this was climbing over all these boulders floating on water. 

 

I can only imagine what it would have been like if I was overweight and had awful balance...

oh wait....

But it was real cool, and I got real sweaty. 

Then we went for pizza! 

pizza has never tasted so good. 

Then we went to the pool. and I got fried like a pickle...

side note...what is with fried pickles

I've seen like 25 posts on blogs, instagram etc

about fried pickles

I'm thinking I must try these delectables...

now back on track.

That weekend, the OLYMPICS began. So the rest of the trip was pretty much spend in front of the TV listening to my grandma, who apparently coaches every Olympic athlete, cheer on her trainees. 

The last day, we partook of theeee best snowcones known to man on the planet earth at Bahama Bucks.

Delicious.

 

 Then we roadtripped it back to Utah. 
Sooo much fun was had. :)

dress up

guys, my bfffl {best friend for freakin life}is getting married.  In one month. Yikes.
I'm also starting my first official grown-up teaching job in 2 weeks. Double Yikes.

Just yesterday, I was perrusing through my wardrobe choices.  Some clothes I've had since JR. HIGH.  The shirt I'm wearing today in fact, is from the 11th grade. Oi.

So alas, I need to vamp up my wardrobe.  Not only do I need a drop. dead sexy. dress for the weddin, I also need something comfy and practical for teaching

Which is why I really really want to win this giveaway over at Elise'sPieces. :) and I would get this dress...

Source: mikarose.com via Amy on Pinterest

pockets. colored. zipper in the front??.
It's a winner. 

.435.

I miss buying milk on Wednesdays
I miss Main street traffic
I miss twizzle berry.
I miss cursing at the stupid 4 way stop on 10th
I miss saying things like turn right on 5th or head up 10th
I miss Fredricos
I miss the  3 dollah theater
I miss only having one radio station to listen too
I miss drivers like this

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I just miss Logan.

Buttttttt never fear, I will be making my grand return debut in t-minus 2 weeks!

Can't wait.

let's talk about....

pop music.
Sorta.
 
I'm having a love affair...


     af·fair: a romantic or passionate attachment typically of limited duration
                                         

With singer/songwriter Sara Bareilles.
like major girl crush up in here. 
as in I feel bad for the other cd's in my car and tracks on my cellphone because they are getting neglected.  
it's the sara b channel all day everyday.

 She is a master lyric-tician. 
              and she's the only master lyric-tician because I just made that up
She speaks to me

but she has a fault, she doesn't make enough music videos.  Like she has better things to do like serve in Japan and give concerts to support needy children. 
               cum-mon sara---priorities

So, I'm going to post some lyric videos.  I hate lyric videos.  Like with a passion, but, my passionate attachment  to Sara is stronger, so I'm going to post a few. 

"i never wanted anything so much

then to drown in your love

and not feel your rain"

"too late two choices

to stay or to leave

mine was so easy to uncover

he already left with the other

so i learned to listen through silence"

I'm telling you people...she's amazin'

 

 

HEY AMY

you suck at blogging!

Yes, yes I do.

It has been one month since I last blogged.

One. Month.

face palm

My bad

BUT,

  

i'm back

i'm excited

and

i'm ready to rock your world

:)
 

God Bless the USA

Happy Independence Day, America! 

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this pretty much sums it all up...

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that my friends, describes my life perfectly right now

it's no secret

oh hey blog.
it's been awhile.
my life is pretty super exciting boring
i don't do much
but, i do waste the hours of work away on the inter-web
yesterday, i read like 100 pages of boy meets world tumblr
*face palm*
but, it's no secret that i really really love that show
it's obsession status
and i'm not the least bit ashamed
i think it's pretty funny when someone says to me..
"hey remember that show boy meets world? i loved that show"
and i be like
"oh please.  remember it? i memorized every episode."
it's a talent really

and i just really think it is brilliant tv

ps pandora, if your listening, please stop playing scream-o music. thanks

over and out

maybe i'll come up with a not-so-lame post

don't count on it

 
 

The power of a sentence

This post has been writing itself in my head for a couple months and I haven't been able to figure out how to express what I'm feeling and thinking in a way that people could relate, yet keeping confidential information confidential but still not being so vague that people feel like they just read an obituary that doesn't tell how the person died.
Whew.
But I think that I've figured it out.
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In elementary school, we learn about sentences. We learn how to structure a proper sentence.  As we continue in our learning, we learn about subjects, predicates, and verbs.  We learn the importance of subject verb agreement, where to place the commas, and not to end a sentence with a preposition {cue ms bridges's inappropriate co-ed joke}

Isn't it interesting though that all of those rules and procedures have to do with writing.  We are never really taught how to talk in sentences.  We just do it. When we first begin to talk, we get out a word here or there, and then eventually-bam-we never shut up.

Sentences are powerful.  A sentence can change so much in just the time it takes to utter the subject and the predicate.  It can ruin everything you had hoped for. So much can come from just a measly little sentence.  So much happiness and sometimes utter disappointment and discouragement. 

A few months ago, a three word sentence changed a lot of things in my life.  subject. verb. adjective.  That's all it took to get my mind spinning in a wild whirlwind of emotions I had never experienced before. I thought I would never be able to "move" on from the news that was delivered via that sentence.  Those three words changed a lot of things.  They canceled out a lot of feelings I had felt and, if I'm being completely honest, made me feel like a worthless, naive incoherent blob. 

But, the utterer of those words experienced many different emotions.  bravery.confusion.fear.  Once I got over my selfish feelings, I realized how they were feeling and how awful it was for them to be going through what they were experiencing and expressing in that sentence.  Isn't that interesting.  Two people. One sentence. three words. Yet, each person involved felt very different emotions based off of those words.

Time went on and that sentence lingered in the back of my mind all the time.  I replayed it over and over again. I revisited the emotions I felt when I first heard it, and gained other emotions.  sadness.compassion.drive to resolve. As time continued to go on, the shock of hearing those words wore off, and life began to go back to normal for me.

Then today there was another sentence.  This time, six words. Again there was a subject, a verb, and this time a noun.  The utterer of the sentence felt excitement.giddy.happiness.  But, I was again brought to those feelings of disappointment.discouragement.heartache. I don't know how the feelings will change as time goes on this time, but I'm hoping it starts to be easier.happier.settling.

How am I supposed to save money

When I spend 75% of my work day on pinterest and these two pins show up on the same page....

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It's inevitable.